Anxiety

I've been doing very good, my mood is stable still thankfully.  I have been having some minor mood swings but I can put that down to the stress I've been under.  Lately, I've been trying to figure out what to do with my time. I have no job, am not in school.

I realized the other day that I'm not ready for a job yet due to my anxiety and panic attacks.  However, I am going to try volunteering.  It doesn't pay of course but it does help me get out more and gain more confidence in social interactions.  I also know it will feel good helping other people which is something I love and wish I could do more of.  I hope within maybe a year of that I'll be ready for a job. we're still working on anxiety in therapy and through CBT Self Help books. I still got a long way to go. From what I've learned anxiety is very co-morbid with Bipolar Disorder.

I'm confident if I work hard enough I can overcome my anxiety and fears.  It will take one small step at a time but I'll get there eventually.  I keep putting myself down comparing my life to where my friends have gotten in life.  We're entirely different, I had a lot going on and am only just now starting to feel stable.  It may take me a little longer to get where I want to in life but I'll get there eventually without a doubt.